UPDATE

Hey Everyone!

It's been a good minute since I've posted on here. 
The plan was to transition to Tumblr and continue from there but Tumblr's format didn't work for the direction I wanted to go with the blog.
Then life happened and I had to put it on hold all together.
I'm excited to announce that I've been bit by the bloggin bug again. I'm putting a team together to deliver an all new, bigger, and better blog celebrating erotic art,comics, and geekness!

So stay tuned!
Have a great week, everybody!
-Jezza

JezzLOADS has moved!

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JezzLoads has moved!

JezzLoads is back and has resumed it's monthly festivities at its new home on Tumblr!
Follow for new art and interviews!

Nathan and the Adonai - Concept Art

A preview of who's to cum in future episodes of Nathan and the Adonai

TRANSITIONING

Hi Everybody!!!

Only 1 more sleep to Bent-Con 2013!!!
I'm just so freakin excited!!!

Bent-Con is so much more than a convention for me. It's almost a family reunion. It's the one time of year that I get to catch up with so many of the artist that I admire and now call friend. I get to meet fans and hear their direct feedback. I always leave with new friends, fans, and motivation. I learn a lot and more importantly - I have A LOT of fun!

This year is extra special because my very own comic is finally making it's debut!
I won't bore anyone with the struggles of getting to this point because if you've been following my blog for a while you'll have somewhat of an idea already, but despite how frustrating or depressing any of those struggles were, I'm grateful for them.
It's here and the joy taste all the sweeter because of all those struggles. 

Allow me to share some of the lessons I've learned getting to this point...

My experience with being part of the Bent-Con Team, has revealed to me just how many amazing artist out there will allow themselves to be deterred by any obstacle. 
We are our own worst enemies as artist, writers, - Creatives. 
We're our own worst critics, we're harder on ourselves than anyone else, and as a result we doubt ourselves way too often. When these feelings are combined with circumstances that we have no control over, it's overwhelming. So overwhelming - that giving up will seem like the right thing to do. I've been disappointed with just how many amazing creatives I've seen who do just that. 

The last 2 years have not been easy at all for me. I was pretty much past the place of self doubt and over criticizing. Those things had become ambient noise that I rely on to check myself and motivate myself to push myself out of my comfort zones. But I wasn't prepared for the onslaught of circumstances that were just out of my control.
Alpha personalities like mine don't accept the concept "It's out of my control" very easily. It's mostly a strength to a fault, but when it's a fault, though - it often makes for more stress than is necessary. Alphas will most likely try to FORCE something rather than accept and go about it another way. 
If I've learned anything in the last 2 years, (and I've learned A LOT), it's just that. The fight isn't always won with stronger punches, sometimes you just gotta roll with them and strike when you can and prevail through endurance. 

So, if you're a creative and theres a project you've been working on but shit just keeps happening - Keep at it! 

"If you're going through hell, KEEP GOING." - Winston Churchill


That said - THANK YOU to all of the fans and followers who have stayed with me through such an "Off and On" couple of years. 
The remainder of this year is gonna be a transitional one for the blog as I prep for a BIG year of celebration in 2014. 

I've recently experienced some of the advantages of Tumblr and have worked out what seems to be a good plan to continue with the direction I'm taking this blog.
So, follow me on Tumblr!

There isn't much on there just yet, but you'll have the jump when I do start uploading art and interviews. In the meantime, you can enjoy the pics I post from this year's Comikaze and Bent-Con.

I'm also on Instagram and Twitter. I also have a new fanpage on Facebook that is in a very similar state as my tumblr at the moment. 
Feel free to follow me on any of those and all!

While I know it's silly to think ALL of you will be at Bent-Con, I hope that all of you who will be - will stop by and say hello
       ...and buy my comic book LOL!

Enjoy the rest of your week, Folks!
-Jezza

It's Here! It's Finally Here!

It's here! It's finally here!!!

It's been a rough road and long journey but my own comic is finally making it's debut at this year's Bent-Con!

Here's the premise: 

   Nathan isn't your ordinary hero. Actually, he's not a hero at all - but that's not going to stop him from trying to be. Recent events have put him on his first quest to seek out a great sage renown for training some of the world's greatest heroes. 
Nathan's just begun his quest and it's already been derailed. Before Nathan can get on with his quest, he has to save someone - a task littered with all of the classic hurdles that face new adventurers. 

This book is just the beginning of a tale filled with magic, monsters, and lust!
I can't express how excited I am to finally be sharing it with you all!


See you at Bent-Con!
-Jezza

1 Month till Bent-Con!!!

Bent-Con's comin!
Bent-Con's comin!
Bent-Con's comin!

This year's show is gonna be ROCKIN'! Bent-Con returns with a plethora of geeky creators, celebrity guest, and it's famed Costume Catwalk while adding more events that encourage more cosplay - a Dance Party and an Atlantean themed Pool Party!

If any of you are struggling to find a room, looking to carpool, or need some other kind of assistance with organizing your Bent-Con weekend - There's a Bent-Con Community Group on Facebook to help people with such dilemmas connect.

See you there!
-Jezza

October 2013

Happy October Everybody!!!

It's October! - So that means two of my favorite events are approaching: Halloween & Bent-Con! Are you as excited as I am?!?!?

I've recently moved. So my return to blogging will have to wait till once I'm settled and set up. Realistically it will be after Bent-Con, but I at least have a Calendar Guy to hold you over.
;)

Have a great Month everybody. 
See you at Bent-Con!
-Jezza

SEPTEMBER 2013

Happy Labor Day, Everybody!

I hope everyone's had a nice weekend.

Well, I gotta admit - I'm a little surprised to still see that my blog is up. I'm sure I was low on the list for those that Google was getting rid of, but their email was so cryptic that it sounded like I was a gonner for sure. 
I'm still not taking any chances. I'm still working on moving the blog, but since I am still up and I have a new computer (Yay!!!) I figured I'd give an update with another calendar guy. 

I actually just got my older computer back today. I'm assured it's in working condition again, but sadly I've lost all of the data that was on it. This has been a reality I've been struggling to accept for some time now. Losing that data, means I've lost about 7 years worth of work - not an easy loss to accept.
Now you may be asking why didn't I have it backed up...well one of the primary problems I was having with the computer was that it wasn't recognizing my external hard drives or dropbox. So backing up was one of many problems that progressively presented themselves as it became harder and harder for the bloody thing to just turn on. 
The damage of just how much work I've lost is still revealing itself, but I've grieved long enough. I'm back at work and have used this time away to create and RE-create a body of work that I am excited to share with you all very soon!


So stay tuned, my friends. 
Until then, have a GREAT week!
-Jezza

UPDATE...Goodbye, Blogger?

Hey Everybody,

I was preparing for my return to blogging when I learned that Blogger has made the decision to shut down porn blogs. Apparently they're only going after those who only "monetize," but their language is so vague that it's never elaborated on what they define as monetizing blogs so they can shut down any blog they want.

Those of you who have followed me for a while, know that I have had a very frustrating relationship with Blogger for a while now. I see this as the push I needed to explore other options.

So, my return will be delayed slightly while I explore/learn other blogging options.

In the meantime, enjoy a free comic strip I did with Class Comics!

In case I'm unable to access this blog when "The Purge" comes, please sign up for updates. I have a lot of Big revelas coming in the next couple of months you won't wanna miss!

What does Black History Month Mean to You?

     I lived in Australia for several years. My time there allowed me a taste of what it's like to not have a Black History month. To be perfectly honest, I forgot all about it.
In Australia, The Civil War, The Civil Rights Movement, and even Obama becoming the first Black President isn't "black history," it's all part of America's history. I look forward to the day when "Black History" is told and taught along with everyone else's history in America.

The presence of a "Black History Month" or any other  "Minority History Month" means that there is still an "us and them" type mentality in this country; so much so that minorities need their own history separate from the rest of America's History. 
This isn't as negative as it sounds, though. It also means that America as a nation agrees that minority contributions to America's history are important enough that  at least a month's recognition of them annually is necessary. 

That said, here's my final question for this year's Black History Month:

"What does Black History Month mean to you?"

Here is what some of them had to say:

Black History Month 2013: Role Models?

A cast of diverse characters allows for a diverse audience to have the opportunity to relate with any of those characters. Factors like the character's appearance and/or their situation or circumstances are among the most popular reasons someone would relate with a particular character.

This week's question is:

"What black toon do you most identify with?"

When I asked this weeks question, I couldn't help but think about how I'd answer. I struggled to settle on one. I have always been obsessed with the elements, so I've "identified" with most characters with elemental powers , regardless of their race. My lightning fetish would lead most to think that toons like Storm or Black Lightning would be an obvious choice, but in reality the toon I sincerely identify most with would be Foxy Love from Drawn Together. 
I can totally identify with how ghetto fabulous and slutty she can be! Haha!

Here's how some other black creatives answered the question...

Black History Month 2013: STEREOTYPES - The Good, The Bad, The Truth?

I once had a conversation with an Asian friend (who has a big dick) about stereotypes and asked him, "Which do you think is worse- being black and having a small penis or being Asian with a big dick?" 
The black man with a small penis will never live up to the expectations society has put on him and the Asian with a big dick will always have to prove it.

Regardless how false or exaggerated stereotypes may be, they exist for one reason or another. Some work in our favor, some do not.  I, myself, measure up to many of them and yet I'm still surprised when people are shocked that I don't really care for watermelon or fried chicken or that I can swim. 

This week's questions were:

What 3 stereotypes about blacks are actually true about you? 

and

What  stereotype about blacks is the most false about you?

Here is what some of the Erotic Arts black creatives had to say...

Happy Belated Presidents Day

Well I had planned a big presidential blog celebration for this years Presidents Day, but due to technical issues, I am now 2 weeks behind on blog post.

I will reserve the planned celebration for next year's President's Day and just share the caricature I had planned. 

4 years ago, when I first started this blog, I did a toon of President Obama. 
At the time, I was just getting back into illustrating and learning how to color digitally.
You can see how far I've come by comparing this one with my first attempt.

Black History Month Spotlight: Ru Paul

Some of the greatest achievements in progression for any oppressed group have come from the powerful influences of music, humor, and art. Entertainers have a way of challenging their audience's perspectives and presenting relatable situations. Ru Paul is one such entertainer.

RU PAUL:

Ru Paul has earned a great deal of respect from me. There are more than enough challenges in America for black gays. To embrace femininity in such an extreme way while attacking those same challenges takes balls! 

Prior to Ru Paul's Drag Race, I didn't understand drag and often dismissed it as silly or unnecessary. Don't get me wrong, I would watch a drag show and be grateful for the entertainment, but I shared the same appreciation for clowns at the circus.

During the first season of his show, I found myself in awe and inspired by the artistry involved with doing drag. Around this same time, a few friends of mine "came out" to me as drag queens. I was initially shocked and a little disappointed that they felt like that was something they couldn't share with me. As often as I used to preach about how hateful and segregating the gay community can be, I learned I was displaying some of those same traits when ever I changed the subject or dismissed anything to do with drag queens. 

Through his music, Ru Paul promotes positive and encouraging messages about empowerment and unity. With every season of Ru Paul's Drag Race, Ru introduces to the world to a crew of gays that don't always fit into the "comfortable" categories of gays that the world or even fellow gays are used to. Ru Paul has been a major player in giving gays a common place in any community. 

JezzLoad Quickie: How does being black influence your art - or does it?

  

This year, as part of my blog celebration of Black History Month, I surveyed a variety of black creatives with an assortment of questions. I will be sharing what they had to say through out the month.

This week's question:

How does being black influence your art - or does it?

It's obvious that it influences my work, but not as heavily as you might think. 
When I made the commitment to become an erotic artist, I had a goal to showcase underdogs. I say underdogs because as a general category, I used the groups that tend to get dismissed more often on the online dating/hook up sites. You know - the groups covered in the "No Blacks, No Asians, No Fats, No Fems, and no one older than..." clause.

Here's how some other creatives answered today's question:

February 2013

Nothing says "I love you" like flowers and chocolate! 
Happy February, Everybody!

Here's this months Birthday Creatives:
Class Comics and DNA magazine's Leon De Leon will be 28 on the 7th
Writer, Justin Hall, turns 42 on Valentine's day (the 14th)
and blogger, Viktor Kerney aka Wonderman, will be 39 on the 16th

Ok. I have a got a MONTH of goodies in store for you! 

I interviewed some of the hottest talent among African-Americans in the erotic and/or geeky arts with questions about Black History Month. I will be posting their responses weekly in what I will be calling JezzLoad Quickies. 
I'll be sharing some experimental art pieces and fan art as well in celebration of the occasion.

I also have a Valentine's Day special in the works for you that you won't wanna miss.

AND - I have a JezzLoad interview with this month's spotlight creative, Lucky Sanford!

I'm packin a lot in a tight little...month. 
It's gonna be great and you're gonna love it.
Have a great February, Folks!
-Jezza

BUYAKASHA!!!

I LOVE the new TNMT on nickelodeon! I LOVE IT!
This is the first incarnation of the series that I actually love ALL of the Turtles. Mikey has always been my favorite and remains so, but I greatly appreciate the exaggeration of each of their personalities in the new series. Donatello is adorably nerdy. Leo is a lot less uptight and more relatable; plus I love that he's a total fanboy! Raphael was always my least favorite until now. He's not just hotheaded, he's funny and we see his softer sides a lot more often. Even Master Splinter is more entertaining with a smart-ass wit. 
This cartoon makes me feel like a kid again, so I had to whip out some fan art. 

For those of you who were expecting or hoping for something with a lot more dick - I did ask for suggestions. :)

A New Year Has Cum!

Happy New Year, Everybody!!!

The following folks are celebrating a new year in more than one way this month:

• Today is Silencio's 38th birthday - Happy Birthday, Silencio!
• JC Etheredge will be 33 on the 8th
• Sean Platter advances to 51 on the 10th
• Benoît Prévot turns 45 on the 15th
• Chayne Avery will be completing his Fourth decade of life on the 21st
• PK Eiselt follows with his 36th year on the 22nd
• and BeefyBlimps celebrates his golden birthday; turning 28 on the 28th

So it's traditional for many to start the new year with resolutions. It's been years since I made New Year Resolutions, but when I did - I usually fulfilled all of them. So, I'm gonna make some resolutions this year.

Bent-Con 2012 Recap

     So it's been two weeks since the extravaganza gathering of gay geeks, Bent-Con, occurred. The event is so overwhelmingly fun, it takes me at least a week to recover. 
Many of you already know what Bent-Con is, but for the benefit of those who don't, I'll explain. Bent-Con is an annual LGBT Comic Convention. It's technically 3 years old, but this is its second "official" year. Bent-Con gives home to artist, writers, directors, and anyone else showcasing queer work that usually is either overshadowed or more often excluded all together from other comic conventions. Fans can enjoy works they would normally miss out on as well as participate in cosplay they would usually not be free to or feel comfortable wearing. 
This year's show was packed with so many great panels, it was not easy picking which ones to attend. Celebrities like  Amber Benson, Tom Lenk, Christopher Rice, and even Traci Lords got in on this years fun along with Celebrity creatives like Jane Espenson, Phil Jimenez, Wendy Pini, Marc Andreyko, and too many more to list without this looking like one of those linage books of the Bible. Here are a few highlights from the show...

December

Hey Everybody!
The end of 2012 is nigh! Can you believe it?!
The end of the world doesn't look like it's gonna be happening anytime soon, so I guess I have to get back to work. I'm just getting back into the swing of things after returning from my trip to Bent-Con last weekend, but first there are some birthdays that need to be recognized:

This month two fantastic artist will be celebrating the big 4-0! Boy Meets Hero's co-creator and colorist, Russle Garcia is celebrating on the 13th and Spanish artist extraordinaire, David Cantero, on the 29th.
Be sure to stop by their facebook page or websites and give him some Extra birthday love.

Ok, I have LOTS to share about Bent-Con! Instead of trying to sum it up with a few unjust adjectives and disclosures, I will be posting a review of the amazing event later this week.

The last few months have been stressful for me and the blog has suffered for it. Actually every since I returned from Japan, this Crazy year has been spinning in chaos. The combo of a much needed time out and the super rejuvinative aspects of Bent-Con have helped me bounce back. I have some long overdue fan art pieces to share with you in addition  to a celebratory JezzLoad Q&A with Jason's Jeff Krell. 

Happy Monday to all of you and make it a GREAT week!
Jezza